lately

Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet

well its officially sweatshirt/sweater weather... ummm YES! i have always loved fall and everything about it, halloween being the most wonderful part but back to school shopping, indian summer nights, getting hurricane-d on last thursday while waiting for the j.. haha everything's wonderful. but really. made of list of things i need to redesign my portfolio and to get rid of old work, so im starting on that this week, which should be refreshing. been applying a lot, haven't heard much but just feel like its a matter of time. been riding kiel's bike around, while i wait to pay for chelseas and get it from brock. everything else has been low key, i made baked ziti and homemade pizza this week, both really awesome. thinking taco's next. went out to queens center mall yesterday a quite ridiculous adventure, a little unnecessary but kiel got halo. got some la burrito and budweiser.. per usual. ooh new glasses and contacts this week... yesss.

me me me me me

its all about me, time time

been smoking too many cigarettes
not enough greeen
been drinking enough
been working but not enough
been sleeping but not enough alone
been alone but not enough
had enough of certain people
and not enough of others
been lazy but too much to be enough
been biking around and around biking
been watching too much hulu with kiel and steve,
way too much far past enough,
been hiding these unsettling emotional lapses,
with enough to keep everyone still smiling,
been talking too much to evan, but never enough,
been abandoning life because i like theirs better,
listening too much smashing pumpkins and not
enough ninjasonik, but it enoughs
enough, enough, enough,
its all about me me me

xx

new tootoo

born june 27th at eastside ink, bunny b aka roger

xx

smiley faces, sleeping in and dance dance

wow this work as a chronological record of life since saturday night.

while saturday was a monsoon it still turned out to be a good night, kiel and i went to pianos, both got terrible first drinks.. then much better ones. the night just got better and better.

sunday worked after waking up at two very hungover, then went to work. boo.

monday was marina and the diamonds at LPR with amad and sara. good night, we got some drinkies before the show, which was nice to catch up with those kids.

tuesday blah blah blah.... today was weird. my thesis is heading to a beautiful place, i am sooo stoked to have spring break off to work on all the hand type i am doing on my maps. i feel like is moving positively in the right direction.. kiel is out at sxsw living out his dream which i am extremely jealous of.. off to shower and wash this mop on my head, then off to bed.. i work from 7-4, then 4:30-1, then 7-4, then 5:30 -2 for the next two days.. i hope i dont pass out. :x.

xx

all i comprehend.

so today was big. senior project class and senior porfolio class. sounds win win right. wrong. i have sooo much to do before may that i wonder if i will ever survive if i do get a job, but i 've done it before so hey. started the silhouette project with an mta map, next step is get more maps. also found a crazy amount of information about the CTA, the chicago el system in this transit maps of the world book. crazy. so thinking about designing my own subway map. hmm. yeah. went to lunch with amelia, finally taco bandito.. and saw moo. today was overall good a awesome designer came to talk in sandy's class, maurizio masi which was inspiring and reassuring.. got a call back from the job, i got it but it wont start til the 22nd. which is kinda sad cause im broke. so, the first week of school is over.. internship tomorrow.. i have faith, it will be awesome.

xx

WHAT A DAY.

success for me, is having a job i love, that will provide me enough income to someday be featured on the @sartorialist blog .. i said it.

what a first day. i really do feel brand new. started the day, late yay for class at 2. had lunch with kyle at brown cup, its kinda of our tradition. before every semester starts we lunch, today at brown cup, last semester, considering london it was jameson at black door, or dinner, aka blockheads with magaritas, last summer, and last winter semester lunch at brooklyn bagel. so today was no different, catching up on the goss, like scott likes to say.

next was senior project with kingsley, goodness. i mainly zoned out thinking about my mapping project when he talked about silhouettes, i mean i wrote a whole paper on kara walker last semester, i know what a silhouette is. got to catch up with amad, sara and alison and see the rest of the people in our block. class went well, kingsley wanted to talk after. had a nice conversation with him about my mapping ideas, we decided i should focus my mapping on a common theme, like new yorkers and their neighborhoods or something similiar, rather from being so personal, which i agree with.

after met up with kiki, havent seen her in a looong time. ended up chilling with her friend, che, the elevator operator guy in the administrative building. enjoyed a b on the roof, amazing view of the empire state building.. ridiculous. then she had to go to class. had a nice walk down 23 to the 6..

got home and got a call from choice market, second interview tomorrow at 12.. which is kinda annoying cause i have class til 12, but ill try and get out early.. yay maybe a job!

i have a lot of ideas for february.. which is soo exciting. tomorrows a loooong day class from 9-9! ohhh no.

well good first day back, oh and i have a new secret..

xx

deep thoughts.

it hit me immediately when i woke up this morning that this is the last day of true freedom, i will have in a very long time. school starts tomorrow and my job hunt seems to be getting closer.. i hope. then i started getting very nostalgic and sad and then i was like whatever, but to avoid further avoid the future, i have remained in bed, until i feel it is truly time to let my bed go. no worries it will be soon, however its sad because this span of time from the beginning of august til now has probably been the most beautiful. after working my ass off for what seems like forever before that, it was heaven. from brooklyn to dc, virginia, chicago, london, nottingham, paris, barcelona, rome, naples, capri, basel, zurich, germany, baltimore, detroit to now. the amazing people that i have met and hope to remain in touch with, the whole thing. plus its entering supposedly the best part of school, the final semester. this semester is all about mapping. mapping is my thesis, so i will map. this post is a good place to start thinking, and i already have stored many map filled blog posts to come in the future. mapping is all about the journey, if one survives the journey they can map it, its like a gift. okay.. the pictures. the doors, i absolutely love and thought those are the ones i want to be on FIT on monday afternoon, i would be sooo much happier to walk back into FIT if those were the doors, but ohh well. loooks like ill have to go back to france for that.. numero dos... i feel like this can sum up my break, lots of thinking, overthinking, underthinking, staring and realizing that it all turns out to nothing... BUNNY. also have realized i am kinda add, which makes life short and sweet, television a nightmare and bunnies adorable! look at it, soo furry, i think i want one, after the job i want/need comes... or maybe not a bunny. after all this rambling i feel like the whole less is more thing, got lost, but in actuality and reality its true, i have developed this subconsciously by getting rid of sooooo many things during this 'break' i have got rid of soo much that i feel like i have soo little, but everything i have i now need and love. soo i guess i was right? and last but certainly not least i do love new york. the transition back into my brooklyn vibe has been neccessary and sad/depressing at times, but i dooo love my life here, the squirrel that woke me up in my window this morning, people laughing at running cops on subway platforms, cheap food, amazing neighborhoods, i mean life is pretty good right. right.

xx

i mean.

this is my location.

this is what i need/want/like/love/desire/look for in boys...

i mean.

to brooklyn ten.

i guess i got myself by requiring myself to write with the photo choice, cause sometimes they do have themes, that i hope one could if it wanted to find them. wow. i am still sitting here with my ER visit registration thingy, its kinda cool, but i'd rather that didnt mean everyone would ask whats wrong. i would have to make up a bunch of one liners to answer it like, i just had a baby. maybe. a salt shaker of cocaine (ref. fear and loathing) got me there. i dont know. use you imagination. okay okay these are my favorite artistic representations of things that i enjoy mid way through january '10.

e>ol>e .

xx

time to believe in what you know.

oh nine.

well there goes another year.

2009 was by far the most important year of living thus far.
this year i was blessed with the opportunity to :
move to brooklyn.
study abroad.
travel to : italy, france, germany, switzerland, spain, and the uk.
meet the most wonderful people.
finally work at a job for a year, even as much as i hated it.
got meri inked on my arm.
enjoyed travels to baltimore and philadelphia to visit brit and malmal.
learned what it means to love yourself.
to figure out that i need to do something spatial with my life.
intern this upcoming spring at anthropologie. a true dream come true.
launch my personal website!
buy way too much marc jacobs.
first pair of coach shoes.
hear atrak twice! the first time front row. in brooklyn and chicago.
see the yeah yeah yeahs live... more importantly karen o.
find my new favorite movie, the fantastic mr. fox.
spend my first birthday in new york. coney island two days in a row.
have my first somewhat longterm relationship.
a few one night stands. two ironically on friends birthdays.
to survive getting my computer stolen on the eve of turning in my study abroad portfolio.

the best year i could've ever asked for or dreamed of.

in 2010 i hope to :

continue traveling.
keep an open heart.
follow my dreams.
find success after graduation.
go back and visit the girlies in italy.
collect more marc jacobs.
find a pair of cute and comfy boots.
learn how to let people know when something bothers me.
be more outgoing.
continue creating collage books.
take 10,000 pictures.
live somewhere else for a period.
fall in love.
be healthy.
to tell those i adore, that i do.